presence

12-18-2022

A moment of peace as the day begins.

A day of difficult weather and confusing relationships.

These things are always a part of our reality.

Learning how to stop opposing the changing weather-

The changing relationships.

A moment of peace to connect to my soul-

Another part of our reality, untouched by the events of the day.

A moment of peace to sustain us as we begin our daily adventure.

That I may meet every challenge with a smile-

Every person with warmth.

Knowing my body is weak, as is my mind.

Our greatest strength is our soul, and it has no need to assert itself.

It must be found anew, every day.

12-15-22

I have been struggling lately.

Today I feel sadness, it is a warm sadness that connects me to all humanity.

My struggle has been with a relationship.

I have gone through the fear, anger, jealousy, the self righteousness.

Now I am connecting to my sadness.

I know my struggle is self-imposed.

Now I am thinking about others suffering that is not self-imposed.

How fortunate I am.

Grateful to understand that those I am struggling with are hurting too-

Maybe unaware of their pain.

A broken heart is a point of connection for us all.

Let me be grateful for those who have broken mine

Let me follow my broken heart, not my broken ego.

12-11-22

Today, what will be my place in the world

Stillness is desired, but I am uncomfortable in it’s presence.

I want relationship.

When I am in relationship, I must get out to find stillness.

When I am alone with stillness, I must create or seek relationship.

As I stay with myself, I realize I can lay the conflict aside for a moment.

I can be grateful that I can make choices, and no choice is permanent.

More at peace now, ok with stillness.

Happy to stay until I choose to leave.

Seeing how in relationship I seek approval, in stillness I seek creativity.

My first reaction to both states is self-centered, and ego driven-

Creating my discomfort.

Becoming less afraid of relationships, less afraid of stillness.

Relationships and creativity are gifts, I don’t control them.

Let me be grateful when they are present, let me be grateful when they are not.

11-27-22

As the universe reveals her stuff-

We are the presence, we are the moment.

We are the replacements who will soon be replaced.

We are the change our ancestors fought,

We too oppose changes the future has wrought.

We are the stories that dissolve as they’re told,

The perpetual change impossible to hold.

Remember my control is an illusion,

Life is not a problem it needs no solution.

And a wonderful time it has been-

Now the sand turns to glass.

My chance will soon end, for this too shall pass.

11-24-22

Words are easy to an old liar like me.

Thinking too can be twisted to what I want it to be.

It’s my emotions that reveal the truth of what’s really inside.

They will find a way out, no concern for my pride.

Today I believe, I really don’t know-

Their truth is not permanent, feel it and let go.

11-6-22

There was a short time this cloudy morning when the rising sun

passed through two separate levels of clouds.

The golden light illuminated a tree line just west of where I

was walking.

The colors of the sky and the barren trees held me to the moment.

The sunlight passed, the cloudiness remained, as did the beauty of place.

Moments of inspiration are very private, personal, and brief.

They are to teach us that we create nothing, we are part of everything.

We take our place, we have our time, and we are gone.

We are beautiful – Everything is beautiful.

The changing universe discovering itself.

11-1-22

Let it come to you, no need to force.

All things come and go when allowed to take their course.

We all arrive from the unknown, and our time will too soon end.

Let me be grateful for the lessons learned, the life I did not intend.

I think life is better when it is a discovery, and not a plan.

I think my heart knows a little more than my mind can understand.

I think I’ve made life more difficult than it was ever meant to be-

Time to stop forcing things and let it come to me.

10-26-22

Over time, Over land, Over thought,

Understand.

Secret thoughts, Found alone,

Mental tyrants, Overthrown.

Sacred stillness, Overview.

Life is passing, Overdue.

Present Perfect, simple, true.

When All is Lost, What’s left is you.

Approval seeking, Soul betrayed.

Ego tripping, Overplayed.

This life, This moment, This place.

Peace is won by loosing face.

9-27-22

Feelings of anxiety pressing in on me today.

Coming back to the moment is difficult,

The power of negativity is strong,

Presence, gratitude, I don’t have time for that nonsense.

So I won’t start a conflict with myself-

I will embrace anxiety, allow it to have it’s say.

I will look honestly at myself, is there something I’m in denial of?

Something I am avoiding, is my anxiety a phantom or a teacher?

Am I manufacturing anxiety to avoid anger?

Finding many possibilities but no answers, I find my anxiety is greatly reduced.

Some calm is returning, choosing to stay with the moment.

Discovering that I am more than passing moods.

9-25-22

Very busy sky today, the clouds are few, they move quickly north to south.

The birds too are very active, in flocks and single fliers they pass northbound.

It is such a mystery to me.

How wonderful it is, there are so many things I will never understand.

My understanding is always trying to catch up-

But it only leads to deeper mysteries.

Learning there is no end game.

Learning to appreciate existence, to trust experience.

I get to choose my attitude.

Self-pity or gratitude are my only options.

My choice need not be spoken, but it will be lived-

And it will create my next experience.

Loving the mystery, loving my place in it.