7-7-24

Living in a world ruled by numbers,

Ruled by judgement, measurement, achievement.

I just can’t do it anymore, make more, work more, sound better,

Look better, weigh less, take more steps than yesterday.

I have ignored my soul for the sake of vanity.

I must find my way back to this moment.

It is only in this moment that I can experience acceptance.

Forsake all measurements and achievements,

All my hidden desires for more, more,more, less, less, less.

I am so easily lost, a compliment, or an insult, and I become

Disconnected, unbalanced, and obsessive.

Learning once again that the only chance I will ever have of

Being at peace with myself, is learning to live from that deeper

Place within, that lives in the now, and knows only acceptance.

7-11-24

Today uncertainty is more apparent than usual.

It’s hard not to slip into negativity.

I am tempted to judge myself and jump into the negativity pool too.

Let me withhold judgement and allow the day to unfold of its’ own accord.

I am to be present to the day, not necessarily involved.

Let me be mindful of my tendency to make things worse instead of better.

Today let me remember to be grateful for the “bad stuff”,

Because there is no good stuff and bad stuff, there is only stuff.

Now my mind relaxes and my thoughts flow along.

A feeling of peace holds me,

And I get to watch the clouds travel through the morning sky.

6-12-24

Life keeps moving forward, I want to grab onto something,

A relationship, a possession, “the truth”, but there will be no stopping.

Life will not wait for my fear or my neediness to subside.

My desire for permanence, for stability, for security, will never be granted.

I can learn to live with this.

After much stumbling around in self-importance, I begin to see some daylight.

There is no need for me to try forcing or controlling what comes next.

Troubles will come and they will pass.

Tyrants will have their time and they will fail.

If I have a role to play, it will be clear to me, if not I will abide.

I choose to place my faith in the laws of nature, the big picture,

And a safe universe. Grateful for my breath.

5-23-24

There is always more to see, always more to learn.

Learning how to break the bonds of self-improvement.

Stepping away from judgement, learning how to be humble.

Learning how it is not my purpose to be better,

My purpose is to be honest.

Today people will die from floods and drought, from starvation

and overabundance, I cannot change the laws of nature.

Today I will know less about right and wrong than I did yesterday.

Today I will place more value on acceptance and less on correction.

Today I will make connection and I will detach from connection,

That is how I will best help others.

Today I will not allow anyone talk me out of my sorrow.

Today I will be foolish and I will be wise, but I will not know when.

Today I will remember perfection creates more mistakes.

Today at least one time I will hold to silence when I have the impulse to speak.

5-5-24

Today I have a strong feeling that it is all here for me now.

Everything I have ever wanted, everything I have ever known.

As I hold to this feeling, two goldfinches arrive, they land in

front of me on a dying tree.

They are the first ones I’ve seen this year.

While they stay I give them my full attention, but they are soon gone.

In my life of emotions the feeling of peace, of presence is stronger now.

Their coming, their going, their moment of eternity.

Today I am learning I can hold these inspiring moments to memory,

as easily as I can my worries.

My worried mind has not gone away,

It wants to concern itself with their survival, or relive some embarrassment.

It will take some time to turn this ship around, and that is the one thing I

have been freely given.

4-23-24

A return to stillness, it is good to be home.

To view a changing sky from a familiar spot.

To be held again by familiar ground,

To return from being lost, again and again

Lost often enough to learn,

Being lost just means finding your own way.

And after a brief respite, the journey beckons.

Stumbling, loosing my way again;

Knowing full well, peace will not be found in discovery,

But in acceptance.

Keep seeking, keep discovering, keep living the paradox-

It makes the world a better place.

4-7-24

Called again to wonder,

Disarmed by the moment,

To be less than one and more than i

There is no secret that I have failed to understand.

The spirits of the forest

The people of the land

The angels of the atmosphere

Know the sacred is at hand.

3-31-24

And now, again and again and again.

I don’t want to know everything,

I want to feel everything.

Again and again and again,

Until I come to realize there is only one feeling.

And that is peace. Only this.

3-24-24

Today I am becoming more aware of how life works.

Loosing my importance.

Coming to see a larger truth.

When I remove myself from the equation..nothing changes.

My absence will mean a minor adjustment for some,

that will become quickly unnecessary.

It is helpful to realize I am becoming a forgotten memory,

a “what ever happened to”.

It is life that moves on, and for the time we’ve been given,

we get to move with it.

I feel more present, more grounded, more emotional,

less understanding.

A dying tree, a glowing dawn,

Here for a moment, the moment gone.

3-12-24

A strong weariness holds me today, I seem to tire so quickly.

Maintaining relationships is becoming a burden.

My thoughts will not allow me peace.

Let me just be grateful for these moments of awareness.

I can look to the sky, and my thinking will ease.

It’s ok to have these thoughts, and it’s ok to let them go.

I will not let feelings of fear or self-pity energize them.

There is nothing in me to fear, nothing to guard against.

No hidden anger to ambush me, no lurking depression to derail me.

Feelings are the colors that enhance my day, they are not

the hidden motivation that drive my life.

The more they are known, the more helpful and the less powerful.

3-17-24

Another morning of complete stillness,

In the sky, in the trees, and on the ground.

And yet somehow when I don’t oppose the stillness,

It seems like these are the mornings when I feel the most alive-

The most connected.

Maybe it is in non-doing that we accomplish the most.

Let me be grateful for these moments,

When my simple presence is enough.