6-12-2023

And now I realize my fatherhood is leaving me.

I feel frightened of losing my role, my purpose, my definition.

I hold my title, but my necessity is over.

I am still loved, occasionally thought of, but no longer of much importance.

Soon enough I will even be thought of as a burden.

The seeds I have sown, knowingly or not, in my children have taken root, and grown.

I am without judgement, they are seeds of fear, seeds of love,

Seeds of peace, seeds of conflict.

My children will discover themselves in spite of my interference in their life.

Again, I realize, I can make nothing better for them,

My great sorrow is for how I made things worse.

My wish for them, is to see their own light, separate from any other,

And to be that perfect glow.