9-8-2022

Today the first light of morning reveals no color, just a soft even grey.

No wind moves the leaves, no bird has ended the silence.

I will connect to the stillness, I will not start a conversation with myself.

My stillness is interrupted by feelings; anger and obsession.

I will not oppose them.

I will be grateful for recent disappointments and confusion.

I want to embrace and learn from all the elements of living.

This will not be my last disappointment,

This will not be my final confusing relationship.

I will let the nature be my refuge, and be grateful for all experiences.

Now the rain has arrived.

It has brought mixed feelings in me, healing, but uncertainty as well.

The ever-changing colors of emotion.

Earlier as I rode my bike I saw a dead animal on the road.

He is with me still.

His passing has made life more precious to me.

I stopped to spend more time with my sadness.

My anger has passed, my anxiety as well.

I hope my sorrow will stay, it is my best teacher.

Learning from living, grateful for what I feel.