3-5-22

Sometimes options are gone,

Sometimes I feel like dying,

Sometimes I don’t know what’s next.

Stopping now, allowing silence to displace the mind storm.

The evil in me will not be ignored.

Knowing rage is so close, I must live this day cautiously.

There is only one hatred – self hatred.

Hatred of others does nothing to dispel self hatred, only feeds it.

Likewise self destruction.

I must be able to sit with self hatred.

Silence, no action, no doing.

I must allow it to be felt, I must allow it to be known.

As I sit it sits with me.

It does not want attention.

It does not want expression.

It has only come to teach me acceptance.

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